"We ourselves feel that what we are doing is just a drop in the ocean. But the ocean would be less because of that missing drop." Mother Teresa
That quote was a lesson learned for me this week. We have an awesome event coming up in Jacksonville in April, and I've been incredibly wishy washy about whether or not I wanted to participate. You see, I wanted to participate, but I had all these "but..." thoughts stuck in my head. "But I really don't have time..." "But I'm shooting a wedding that weekend..." "But we have two events at school that week..." But I realized today that the scariest "but" of all was "But what if I'm successful...?"
Yep, I think that's what I'm afraid of. See, I'm kinda stuck in a bit of a catch-22. I do feel that I could be very successful if I truly put all my plans into action, but I can't put all my plans into action while working a full-time-plus career at the College, a career that provides excellent health insurance, a great retirement pension program, and an opportunity for my children to attend their first two years of college scott free. There, my friends, is the rub.
But today I decided to throw caution to the wind and take the leap. The leap is One Spark, the first of its kind crowdfunding festival for creatives that's going to be held right here in my hometown, and today I added my drop of water to the ocean. Who knows? Maybe I'll be successful beyond my wildest dreams. If that is the path that is meant for me, then everything will fall into place as it's meant to be. It's actually kind of funny that I was scared of that last but. In most things I'm really not much of a long term planner, but the one area I am is in my retirement and my children's college education! So we'll see where this leads me and take it one step at a time. The next step is finding the right venue, so wish me luck and check out my project profile here!